:: Oh, Look, A Tumbleweed ::

:: Sunday, August 05, 2007 ::

As much as I want to see people before they leave for school, I've just felt awful since getting back from the beach. I feel like curling up with a good book or a good movie and just relaxing for a little bit.

I'm so disappointed.

After more than three years, it finally happened. Someone actually wanted to date me. Someone that I would date. Someone who I actually like. He actually looked and me and said "How do you feel about the two of us dating?"

And, of course, I had to say no. And it hurts just a little bit. But the fact that he's going to Wilmington and I'm going to NCSA just makes it impossible. And then there's the fact that I will be in Charlotte for only about six days before he leaves for Wilmington. It's just not enough time to establish a relationship. I know that I do not have the kind of time at NCSA to be able to travel the three-plus hours to Wilmington whenever I want to. And it sucks, because I would have said yes if he was in, like, Greensboro or even Chapel Hill -- somewhere manageable that I could get away to every once in a while.

I was glad my parents were still in Charleston yesterday because I was so tired from the beach and I kind of just wanted to be alone. I mean, as much I as absolutely know I do not have the time, part of me wonders if I made a mistake. Val called me on the way back from Jesse's and was pretty harsh, but I really didn't want to say that I was wondering if I made a mistake and didn't need her berating me, but whatever. I think she was acting out of concern for both parties and I think she realizes that I can make my own decisions. If it's a mistake, then it's my mistake and I'll have to live with that. Oh, well. We're nineteen and twenty (Almost twenty-one), so we've definitely moved past the age of creating petty drama.

But...yeah. I guess I should be happy that someone was finally interested in me? And the beach was really, really wonderful. As is Spice World, possibly the greatest movie in existance. Good to know that, if I should ever fall into a coma, Ginger Spice's boobs will wake me up.

And if anyone actually reads this, I am giving an insanely high recommendation to the movie "Secrets & Lies" by Mike Leigh. Go get it. Now.

:: Nick Sunday, August 05, 2007 [+] ::