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How does it feel without me? :: Friday, May 07, 2004 ::

Hard to believe that a day that includes an AP exam can be called one of your better days in a while...but that was today. I got to be with Heidi and Liz for nearly 12 hours today (Exam included) just doing stuff.

I've become closer with so many people in the last month. Coincendence? Hardly.

I have to say that Heidi and Liz are two of my best fucking friends. I could spend hours with them and never get irritated. We just lay on a hammock and just talked about stuff -- Liz and Simon, Andrew and I, Heidi and her lack thereof, dogs, the sun, school, friends...and I loved every minute of it. I collapsed on Heidi's sister's bed, we played Skip-Bo with Allison, Heidi and I laughed so hard at Liz I started crying, Liz and I got to see the malicious side of Heidi emerge (Towards a fish, no less), I beat multiple Prarie Dogs on the head, Liz looked for a hole on the other side, I climbed a couple of trees, Heidi broke her zip line...my god, it was so much fun.

I worry too much. I need to stop that. I worry about my friends (One in particular) when it's their lives and if they want to fuck it up, by all means, let them. Maybe they'll learn from their mistakes. Who knows?

Why did I have to make friends with so many seniors THIS year, when they're all going to graduate? What the hell kind of a deal is that? Here, make some truly awesome friends then say goodbye to them just like that?! Who will I complain to without Jennifer? Who will I gossip with without Sonny? Who will I act crazy around without Mike? I can't even imagine what it must be like FOR the seniors, saying goodbye in less than a month.

Life is beautiful. I haven't felt this lucky in my life for a while now. Without Heidi, who would I be able to be ME around? Without Andrew, what would my life had been like? Without Liz, who would I be able to laugh at? Without Allison, who would I be able to talk to in the mornings? Without Simon, who would I be able to hold truly deep conversations with? Without Anna, who could I act crazy around? Without Jesse...I can't even fathom that one. My life wouldn't be the same without Jesse. Without Sara, who could I laugh with at almost anything? Without Landon, who could I laugh AT for almost anything? Without Caroline, who could I admire for their unbelievable talent?

Without all of you guys...what would I be?

I love you all so much.

The Quotes

I turned it over looking for the hole!
-Liz on a puzzle piece that a hole right through it

That fish ate my baby fish! I hated it! I know it's survival of the fittest, but not in my fish tank. It's survival of the fittest in my opinion, and I hated that fish. So I killed it.
-Heidi on her cannibal of a fish

Current Mood: Like I know
Current Music: The Beta Band - Alleged

:: Nick Friday, May 07, 2004 [+] ::