Guildenstern: Our names shouted in a certain dawn...a message...a summons...There must have been a moment where we could have said no. But somehow we missed it. Rosen-? Guil-? Well, we'll know better next time. Now you see me, now you-
-Tom Stoppard, R&G Are Dead
:: "How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot! The world forgetting by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each pray'r requested, each wish resign'd" -Alexander Pope
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So I declare a holiday
:: Sunday, April 04, 2004 ::
Today...maybe Daylight Savings Time warped my mind but I've been in this constant paranoid state.
I just want to know that I am wrong in my mind
Because if I was right, I think...I don't know what I'd do
My GOD, I am so stupid. I don't live enough. I sat on a couch last night at Charlotte's party and laughed at people. I should have been up, joking, dancing, regardless of how stupid I may have looked, because WHO CARES?!
I don't want to live my entire life this way.
I want to call someone, but I'm afraid I'll catch them while they're sleeping, and I don't want to wake them up, or while they're doing homework, and I don't want to interupt them, but if I constantly think that, I'll never be able to call them because they could be doing either of those things at any time...and it just sucks because I really NEED to talk to them (Not want, I NEED to have them tell me I'm just being paranoid and that everything I have thought for the past 24 hours isn't true).
Spring Break is next week. Thank fucking God.
I found a CD at FYE last night that I have wanted for such a long time for $6.99. At FYE. This is a huge deal to me. And then I managed to find a copy of "All The Pretty Horses" that does not have Matt Damon or Penelope Cruz on the cover. It's the little things.
Current Mood: Worried Current Music: Radiohead - Sulk
:: Nick Sunday, April 04, 2004 [+] ::